I’ve always listened to what I feel. Human Design helped me to deepen that trust.
I follow my inner authority. Nothing more, noting less.
This helps me to stay close to myself, because I’m able to make decisions that feel good to me. With that I gain more and more trust in myself and my decisions.
Following my feelings
My life looked pretty cool from the outside in the years 2016-2018. And to be honest, I did have everything I dreamed of when I was 16 years old. An apartment in the center of The Hague, a loving relationship, nice friends, a job as a buyer in fashion and even doing another study next to it.
The happy life, right? Just like everyone else, I was filling my life with the things most people of the age 25 do. But how did it feel from the inside?
Empty. Boring. Sad. Dark.
I think the boredom hit me most.
I just couldn’t get my head around the structure we were all living by. The 9-5 jobs, driving the same route (in traffic!) every day to work, living for the weekends, tired AF in the evenings… Is THIS what life’s supposed to be?!
I just had this deep longing inside myself. A heart-felt desire that hurt if I had to think of not pursuing it.
There must be MORE to life, right? I wanted to explore what else was out there.
From 2019 on I got very clear on my next steps: not saving up to buy a house, but to travel.
Of course 2020 brought a little unexpected reality into our worlds, but that gave me the insight to pursue another desire I had. Thanks to working at home I realized I can do my work anywhere. I left my corporate job and started my own business.
Then finally in 2021 it was time to start my new life as a traveler. Leaving everything behind what I knew and just got on the plane of that one way ticket.
Discovering new truths.
For me, traveling has never been about going to all the countries and visiting all the highlights. I just wanted to put myself in different enviroments to see different truths.
I knew this one truth that everyone was living by back home. Okay. And what else is there possible?
I know it’s classic to say that traveling has changed me, but it has. It changed my perspective on the world, people and cultures. But it confirmed my view on what I want to do in life and how I want to live it. Not following the masses, but my way.
‘‘Traveling is not just about the physical journey, but maybe even more about the inner journey.’’
Human Design became part of my journey, because I discovered it just before I left. It has really helped me to understand parts of myself, even the ones I didn’t know before, Now I know - that is who I truly am.
We’re taught wrong
I see most people between 20 and 30 years old create a life to live up to society’s expectations. It happens, because we don’t learn to trust ourself at a young age. We’re being told “to think about it” when we need to make a decision.
A choice based on what we feel is irresponsible and absolutely not logical. But the thing is: your intuition doesn’t work in logic. It wants to expand you.
Where as the mind just makes decisions based on what it knows and wants to keep you safe. Before we know it, we have created a whole life based on sensible decisions.
Until most 35 or 50 years olds sit on the couch and question themselves: how the hell did I get here? They have lived totally disconnected from their feelings.
And believe me when I say that deep desires will never go away. It doesn’t matter how hard you try.
DECODE THE HUMAN DESIGN SYSTEM